He seems to look very worried all the time as you can see from the photo below!

We are in absolutely no routine whatsoever but then that doesn’t surprise me because firstly I’m not a routine person and secondly it’s not really possible to have a routine when you already have a toddler. I guess the big difference is that with Iyla I would be able to help her fall asleep throughout the day whether it be by feeding or rocking / walking whereas that’s just not possible this time. If Iyla needs me to make her lunch or change her nappy and I’m feeding Jobey then I just have to put him down. Or if we walk to the shops and he doesn’t fall asleep then that’s it, with Iyla sometimes it would take three hours!

He is quite different from Iyla in that respect really as she used to need rocking or walking for hours to go to sleep but it doesn’t actually work with him anyway. If he is tired then sometimes he will just fall asleep and sometimes he won’t, it depends what mood he’s in but rocking has never sent him to sleep so I’m glad I didn’t buy one of those baby swings!

As a result he doesn’t always nap much in the day but luckily because he is pretty chilled out it doesn’t seem to bother him too much. He has started to spend quite a lot of time awake though and can sometimes moan if he gets overtired but he is fine when I pick him up. I know everyone parents in different ways and some people do leave them to cry a bit but I personally can’t as I find it too hard to listen to. If he starts to cry then I have to stop anything I am doing to make it stop as otherwise I feel like my head is going to explode!.

Plus he only usually cries when he wants me to feed him so after I’ve done that he will either be asleep or be happy again, which takes me onto feeding. He is still feeding every hour to two hours really, sometimes three or four for his first sleep of the night but it’s never been longer than that. It’s fine though, it works for me and I love the fact that I can stop him crying by feeding him. Whether it’s for comfort, hunger or any other reason is fine by me as long as he is happy and quiet!

I had been suffering with a recurrent blocked duct in one of my boobs so went to the doctor the other day who surprisingly prescribed me a homeopathic remedy instead of antibiotics and it has worked so well. My boob actually feels completely normal for the first time since he was born.

Night-time sleeping varies, some nights he will go for four hours then wake every three which is a good night and other nights he will wake every one to two hours which isn’t so great. The main difference is whether I can put him back down again though in-between feeds. Usually from about 4am onwards he will only sleep in the crook of my arm but I do love waking up like that and night-times are a million times better than they were with Iyla so I’m not worried at all. They are only babies for a short amount of time so the more cuddles I can get, the better.

We have been bathing him in the big bath on the moulded plastic seat and he loves it for a few minutes then he completely freaks out, looks terrified and screams until he goes bright red. It’s happened for the last few times so now I have to quickly wash him before it happens. Bless him, I have no idea what triggers him to be so scared!

He has got really bad baby acne at the moment, I can remember Iyla having it although not quite so bad. I don’t think there is anything that you can put on it so I’m just hoping it clears up soon. I have no idea what he weighs as our six week check-up appointment at the doctors isn’t until he is nearly nine weeks. I can see that he is getting bigger though as he is growing out of his clothes as a rapid rate, not surprising really given how often he feeds!

I haven’t written a post to you for quite a long time now and so much has changed since then.

The biggest change is that you are now a big sister. It has taken you a few weeks to get used to sharing me and Daddy but that is completely understandable, after all you had us all to yourself for over two years. Watching you with Jobey is so lovely and I really hope that you will be good friends as you grow up. I’ve watched your love for him grow over the last few weeks and you are always trying to cuddle and kiss him. You have already found ways to include him in your games – by putting bracelets on his tiny wrists and squeezing your toy cabbages into his pockets! When he cries you go over and say ‘it’s okay little man’ and stroke him, it makes my heart  melt.

You love helping me change his nappies and you insist of having all of the equipment to do changes on Noddy, Dolly and any other toy that has a bum. The only problem is you really believe Noddy has done a poo and if we say you can’t chuck the nappy in the bin then you get upset so we have to sneakily take it out again afterwards!

You are such a little sweetheart and I have so much fun in your company. You still make me laugh every day and I forget that you are only two sometimes as I can explain nearly anything to you and you pretend to understand, even if you don’t have the first clue what I am talking about. You are my little friend and now Jobey is here we call ourselves ‘the gang’ – you have made up a little song that we sing when we do things together.

You love going out for lunch so once a week we go into town and have toasties and share a cake. You always have your juice in a cup with a straw and you always tip it up and spill it over yourself! You like to copy everything I do and in the morning when I’m doing my make-up I have to give you a piece of cotton wool with cleanser on it and pretend to put mascara on you, I even had to paint your toenails pink the other day, something which I said I would never do!

We went shopping to buy you some new clothes the other day and everything you chose was pink, it’s your favourite colour. Then when we got home you spent hours playing it and hung it on all the stairgates. You are such a girlie girl but you also love to play with mud and get messy.

You have started having the odd tantrum or naughty moment so we have had to tell you off a few times recently, last week you hit Daddy in the face so we said you had to say sorry before having dinner. You went mad and refused to say it for 45 minutes before finally giving in but ever since then you have said sorry whenever we have asked you to, like last night when you chucked a spoonful of peas all over the kitchen for no reason!

Overall though you are such a good little girl and I am so proud of you. I can’t believe you are going to be three this year. We went to look at a pre-school this week and I was surprised by how confident you were with the ladies working there, I no longer feel worried about you starting but part of me doesn’t want to let you go. I want to keep you beside me forever and protect you from the sometimes scary world that we live in but I know I can’t because that wouldn’t be fair of me.

My job is to help you grow into an amazing young lady who knows her mind, never questions her worth and radiates confidence in a self-assured but not arrogant way. I want you to always be happy but I know that won’t be possible so I want you to know that I will always be here for you. There is nothing that you can’t come and talk to me about.

I know I’m not perfect, I have been a bit irritable lately due to Jobey keeping me up in the night. You react back when I’m moody and do naughty things which lead to us not always having the nicest time together but even in those times there is nowhere I would rather be (apart from maybe upstairs having a hot bath!).

I love you with all my heart and feel grateful every day that you are in my life.

Mummy xxxxxx

Dad2BabyInsomniac’s mum arranged it as she has a holiday home in Spain and managed to do a house swap. The setting was amazing as the estate was just off Wimborne high street meaning that you went from being in a busy town centre to the middle of a field in two minutes.

The weekend was a typical family holiday and involved car sick toddlers, crying babies and arguing parents but it was so nice to get away and Iyla had an absolutely amazing time!

As did this little guy who got to share a massive bed with me while Dad2BabyInsomniac shared with Iyla, who kept booting him in the back all night!

We went for walks..

Went to Wimborne Model Village…

Went to the beach and ate fish and chips, which I thought I didn’t like but decided that actually I really do!

The only downside was the fact the weather was so rubbish.

The cottages were really lovely and had been decorated in so much white that they didn’t feel at all spooky which is a good thing as anyone who follows me on Twitter will know that I heard an old lady singing at 2am on the first night. Then on the next night I heard exactly the same thing at EXACTLY THE SAME TIME! If that wasn’t spooky enough, it was followed by Iyla waking up screaming about a hand with fingers coming down out of the loft hatch, she has woken up a couple of times in the middle of the night at home before but never saying anything like that.

I totally believe in ghosts though and houses that old are bound to have had things happen in them so I guess it’s to be expected!

We had a great weekend and have now been on our first holiday with two kids, good job we weren’t flying though as with the amount of luggage we had it would have cost us a fortune!

Initially I was worried about how I would do the every day things like manage to get us all dressed in the morning but Jobey is a pretty chilled out baby so none of that is a problem.

What I wasn’t worried about was how Iyla would cope, I really thought that she would adjust to being a big sister without any problems whatsoever but that was probably a bit naive of me.

To be fair to her, she has been pretty good most of the time but because she was so good before, seeing her misbehave has been a bit of a shock. Luckily it doesn’t happen all the time but if she gets tired or bored and I am at home with the two of them then it can be rather challenging.

I can cope with her saying no to everything I ask, copying Jobey crying because she thinks that is how you get attention, asking me to not feed him / get my boob off him / put him down and lashing out during fits of anger but I am struggling with is the fact that she clearly feels upset, angry and frustrated. When I look into her eyes sometimes I can see that she is hurt and it makes me feel awful.

I am doing everything I can to try and stop her from feeling excluded or left out. I have also been trying to explain to her that I still love her and that it’s okay to feel upset or angry at the situation but I guess the problem is that Jobey needs feeding so often at the moment that I feel like all I am saying is ‘I just need to feed Jobey first’ or ‘in a minute when I’ve finished feeding Jobey’. That’s the one thing I can’t change, I can’t starve him at her request! I do offer to cuddle her at the same time but she doesn’t like his feet touching her and has started to grab them and be a bit rough so that leads to more problems.

I know it is still early days and I’m sure things will calm down a bit once he isn’t feeding so often.

I hope so anyway, I don’t think she will be too happy once he starts crawling towards her toys and dribbling all over them but hopefully at some point they will get on and play together!

When Iyla isn’t playing up watching them together is adorable and she is always stroking him and saying how cute he is and how much she loves him. This makes the times when I want to scream much more bearable!

Changing from a mum of one to a mum of two has been amazing and I love my new role. I work better under pressure so I love that I am always busy and there is so much to do. I also love the fact that it has made us feel like a ‘proper family’. I’m not sure why it makes such a difference but it really does. I have found that after some initial teething problems Dad2BabyInsomniac and I are now working like a team and I absolutely love it when we are talking and I get to say ‘the kids’.

I have also found that since I started writing this post nearly a week ago (I can only find the time to write a few lines each day!) Iyla seems back to her old self, I’m sure she will still have her moments but now when Jobey cries she actually asks me to feed him so that’s a start!