I’m not ashamed to admit that sometimes I can be a bit selfish.
Dad2BabyInsomniac had his operation on Tuesday and is now back home with us which I am very pleased about but I am finding it difficult to stop thinking about myself.
This is supposed to be a positive blog post so I won’t start going into details about how he has to keep his leg elevated for two weeks, how he won’t be able to bear weight on it for three months, how he might need further operations and will eventually need an ankle replacement or how this means I have to do everything around the house, everything for Iyla, everything for him, all my college work plus two days a week work from home as well as trying to find the time to do the things I enjoy, like blog.
I am so stressed at the moment and I’m not very good at dealing with stress, it makes me snappy and miserable. Iyla has got some of her big teeth coming through which makes trying to entertain her in the house all day a less than enjoyable task. Everything has felt like a chore and I have been too caught up in my selfishness to realise that it is pointless letting the stress take over.
Luckily this afternoon, Iyla snapped me out of it. She was playing with her toy kitchen and doing something which I found hilarious (video to follow). I don’t even know why I found it so funny but the more I laughed the more she kept doing it and eventually it had us all in absolute hysterics.
I haven’t enjoyed being a mum this week which makes me feel awful because I know how quickly it is all flying by. I am going to make sure that I deal with stress better in future and not let it take the enjoyment out of everything. Life is too short for that.
And here is the moment my little Cherry snapped me out of my bad mood….
Awww Jess it’s not selfish at all it’s just going to be tough and hard for you, well for you all. I saw that you cant attend Britmumslibe now either
I am sending you big z(hug) and hole it gets better and easier for you.
Oh and that video is totally cute xx
We all have weeks like this! You are totally normal and not at all selfish and absolutely should not feel guilty! Whenever you feel a bit low go and rematch that video! xx
Youre not selfish at all. I know when my OH has been an invalid got just 6 weeks it can drive you almost round the bend. It’s hard enough with a little child to entertain all day without throwing other stuff into the mix. Hang in there, you are a great mum and partner…(but Lyla is the cutest in that video!)
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It must be tough having to deal with your husband’s injury. Thinking back to when I’d had surgery it was horrible sitting there, leg up for hours on end, having to let people just get on with stuff around you. But I never really thought about the burden it was putting on others. Luckily we didn’t have a baby/kids then, otherwise it would have been that much harder.
Don’t worry about it, you’re not being selfish, and so long as you have your littl’un around to keep you smiling it’ll be all good
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It’s going to be tough and I’m not surprised you’re finding it difficult. Would hate it if I had to look after hubby that much as well as everything else I do.
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