I’m not ashamed to admit that sometimes I can be a bit selfish.
Dad2BabyInsomniac had his operation on Tuesday and is now back home with us which I am very pleased about but I am finding it difficult to stop thinking about myself.
This is supposed to be a positive blog post so I won’t start going into details about how he has to keep his leg elevated for two weeks, how he won’t be able to bear weight on it for three months, how he might need further operations and will eventually need an ankle replacement or how this means I have to do everything around the house, everything for Iyla, everything for him, all my college work plus two days a week work from home as well as trying to find the time to do the things I enjoy, like blog.
I am so stressed at the moment and I’m not very good at dealing with stress, it makes me snappy and miserable. Iyla has got some of her big teeth coming through which makes trying to entertain her in the house all day a less than enjoyable task. Everything has felt like a chore and I have been too caught up in my selfishness to realise that it is pointless letting the stress take over.
Luckily this afternoon, Iyla snapped me out of it. She was playing with her toy kitchen and doing something which I found hilarious (video to follow). I don’t even know why I found it so funny but the more I laughed the more she kept doing it and eventually it had us all in absolute hysterics.
I haven’t enjoyed being a mum this week which makes me feel awful because I know how quickly it is all flying by. I am going to make sure that I deal with stress better in future and not let it take the enjoyment out of everything. Life is too short for that.
And here is the moment my little Cherry snapped me out of my bad mood….